I started this blog as a platform to show my perspective on COVID and how this monster was suffocating loved ones I fought for. I watched my patients take their last breaths. I would give patients narcotics because gasping for air is painful to the patient. As a caregiver, this event is very difficult to watch. Yesterday, I watched the video of the suffocation of George Floyd. I became sick to my stomach from being so uncomfortable. I wanted to yell at my phone screen, "Who are these monsters, and why did EMTs not start compressions?" My eyes watered and my thoughts raced like "if I were a bystander I would do this, or I would do that." Then after some time, I decided that my thoughts were not true. My thoughts are not true, just like a travel nurse from the South who stated to me last week that "the media makes the race war much bigger than it is." My thoughts are not true in the same way that when I was a little girl waiting in the car and woul